Thanks Kyler

Every single day I hold Kalen for longer then I was cumulatively able to hold Kyler.  I hate to put him down, especially when he's sleeping.  People ask if Kalen falls asleep on his own.  I don't know because neither Clay or I give him the chance to try.  We love holding him as he falls asleep.  Even once he is asleep it is hard to put him down, but I know I get to hold him again the next day.  Some day he is going to be too big to hold while he falls asleep, but hopefully not for a long time.  I thank Kyler for making me aware of how precious time with Kalen is.  I cherish every moment with him, even those tough "why won't he stop crying" moments, but especially those cuddly sleepy baby moments.

New Beginnings - Coming Soon

Over the last few months I have posted that I was considering a employment change.  I never forget Kyler, but working there is a daily reminder of lots of specific tragic moments.  I also have not been happy with the turmoil over the last few months or the possibility of returning to the same position I was in 4 years ago.  After Clay got his new job the plan was to pay down bills and move on, but it didn't seem like I was really moving in that direction.  Continuing to stay there was just easier, comfortable.

Last Thursday the decision was made for me.  My position is being moved off-shore and my last day is January 9th.  I am so happy and excited.  We have enough warning to actually pay the bills down.  We will be in a good place in January.  I have plenty of time to decide what I want to do.  If I don't end up finding a job that starts immediately after this job ends I will be able to spend some one on one time with Kalen, and return to the volunteer job I had prior to getting pregnant with Kalen.  I feel free.  I feel like this is part of the grand plan.  It will be an exciting twist to the story of our lives, just like Clay's lay off a few years ago.

I do, however, feel awful for all my co-workers who are also being laid off.  Most of them are in a much different place in their lives and this is quite a blow to them.  I hope that it will turn out to be a blessing in disguise for them as well.  I really hope that everyone lands on their feet.  I think they will.  The job market here is so much better then it was even a year ago.  

In a couple of weeks I start my Medical Terminology class.  I will have that under my belt by the time I really start looking for jobs.  I have seen a lot of jobs recently that I thought I would enjoy and was qualified for except that I didn't have Medical Terminology.  Or maybe I will decide to really pursue going back to school at that time.  We'll see.

It is just an exciting adventure to know things are changing and have no idea what is ahead in the next couple years.  With Clay's new job we are secure, there is no fear.  I am lucky beyond words.