Suriving

I'm still here and still surviving.  I've been a bit under the weather since we got back from my birthday trip.  I've mostly been sleeping and working.  I've been in a pretty good mood for the most part until the last week.  I have been a little bit paranoid about everything over the last week.  I am not sure why.  I don't want to go to work, I'm sure I'll screw something up there.  I really don't want to face the holidays.  I just want to hide in bed.

My work had a holiday party on Friday.  I was supposed to go but by the time I got done putting out fires at work I was emotionally done.  I was bawling in the car on the way home.  I went and met my husband and we started to head to the party but I couldn't stop bawling.  I decided I couldn't put on the happy show any longer that day and we drove right past the party, got dinner and headed home.  Holiday parties really aren't my thing this year.

We are headed to our little cabin rental on Saturday.  I am pretty excited.  I am ready to just get away from real life and hide for a few days with my husband and puppy.  I've just got to get through the next 4 days of work.

We haven't been about to do a lot of the donations that we wanted to yet this Holiday Season, but today we did go buy some little toys to donate.  It was good and bad.  I liked picking out the toys, but I didn't like thinking about how those kids don't really have anything.  I also didn't like going through the toy section and wondering what we would have been buying for Kyler.