Progress

Today I did something I didn't think I'd ever be able to do again.  I browsed a baby section in a store. Some day we plan to have more kids.  I was beginning to think if I had another kid that I would have to send someone else out shopping for it until it was 5, but I think I'll be able to do it.  I didn't spend long in that section, but it didn't hurt like it has before.  Of course I went at a time when there were no pregnant people or babies there, but I still did it.  I was able to think more about what we would buy for a future child then what we "should" be buying for Kyler.  We like to believe Kyler is busy picking out his little brother or sister and that they are going to play in heaven until he sends them to us.

Other big news.  At the end of June I get the option to go back to my old job.  I am pretty excited that I will be able to make the decision for myself and that I am not stuck in my new position if I don't want to be.  My new boss said yesterday that he needed me to stick with him until the end of June to get things settled down but then I would have the option to go back.  I am not sure if I will go back or not.  It depends on how the next month goes, but it is such a relief to know I'll have the option.

Scheduling in my new position has been a nightmare.  I have to work a few weekends which is fine, but the way it worked out I had to work 7 days in a row.  A month or so ago I could barely do 2 days in a row and suddenly I had to do 7.  I didn't think I would make it through, but I did.  I am on my "weekend" today and tomorrow.  Then I have to go back fro 6 days and have a 10 day vacation.  I don't think I could do many more 7 day weeks though.

My husband got a job through the temp agency which should last until August.  That is such a relief for the budget.  He will be working a lot of overtime so we should be able to make some good headway on Kyler's bills and be able to do a few fun things if we ever have a day off together.  Unfortunately a condition of him getting the job was he had to be there the week we were supposed to go on our vacation for our 5th anniversary.  I am pretty upset that we don't get to go, but I realize it is what we had to do.  I am still taking the week off and I will be able to get a lot of little things I've been meaning to do around the house done and I will be able to go visit my sister.   Hopefully it is sunny and I will be able to sit around outside in the sun.